Friday, 24 April 2009
I am truly a blessed woman! It has been 2 weeks now since my book and meditation CD, “The Soul of the Heart” has been released, and I have been overwhelmed with the wonderful responses that I have been getting. I am so grateful. This book is a culmination of my own journey throughout the years. The struggles, challenges, losses and tears that ultimately have wrapped themselves up into sweet blessings of coming home to myself, to my heart. The sweet whispering of the soul to wake up and stand up.

When I first decided that it was time to publish a book, I didn’t know where to start. It brought up my insecurities, self-doubt, and shadow parts of myself that echoed in my ear, “Who are you to think that you could possibly be worthy enough to write a book’? “Millions of folks write books and they end up in the garage gathering dust, what makes you so special?” The inner dialogue and distractions went on for years. Finally, a very dear friend of mine said, now is the time to step up. And so with wobbly legs and a faint sense of what to do next, I set my intention to write a book and complete a meditation CD. When I finally made the conscious commitment to myself, it was as if I were divinely guided each step of the way, and slowly the book began to take form.

What I visualized creating, was a book that brought comfort and peace to those that picked it up and read through it. I wanted it to be simply yet subtly profound so as to shift one’s awareness from being disconnected to being connected to themselves and others. Looking back on the process, I have come to truly believe that all of us are guided by invisible forces that take our hand and show us the way. It was as if the book wrote itself. I had the amazing opportunity to work with many gifted artists who sprinkled their magic and insights into the pages to create this. It was as if I were the observer watching all of the pieces come together in perfect orchestration.

I’ve been noticing myself and how I respond to people’s reactions to the book and at times I feel overwhelmed with emotion and feel as though I can’t hold all of the “goodness”. It is an amazing journey of self-worthiness and taking my place in this world. When I notice those feelings of insecurities, I stop, refrain from reacting, and bow deeply to that part of me that is scared of showing up and honor her courage and resiliency. I am deeply grateful, and the journey continues to unfold in magical ways.